Body Needs?

What does my body need?  How does that fit in to me being comfy in my own skin?

I am a bit hard headed and love to do things "my way". I'm hoping I'm not the only one out there that has that character trait. That being said, I am working diligently on listening to my body and what it needs to feel satisfied. Seems like an easy concept, but oh no, not for a hard headed California Girl.

I struggle with my body image and with my weight. My struggle began in my early 20s. A bit overwhelmed with life and the seriousness of what it was presenting to me, I guess I needed a way to hide. My way to hide was by putting on weight. Going from a small size 5 to a 16 (ok, that was really hard for me to type...I contemplated not saying that truth) provided a way for me to buckle down and face this serious life. And I of course, did just that. I faced things head on, rolled up my sleeves and worked really hard. Along the way, I learned to hide in the body that I had created.

Hmmmm, where did that outgoing, giggling, fun loving girl go?

25 years later and I am uncovering that girl again. It's almost like peeling an onion. It's a layer at a time and a few tears along the way, but I'm up for the challenge.

I'd love you all to come along on the ride with me.

I already know this ride is going to be a bit bumpy from time to time, but...it will be authentic. I am very committed to telling my truth and perhaps you or someone you know can relate.

I've been a bit off course on the whole listening to what my body wants and so now I am bringing myself back to the center. Back to listening....shhhhh, listen, be still. I remind myself of these few simple words often.

So for now, I realize that I am fully satisfied and needing nothing to fill my body other then a multi vitamin. That's simple...a multi vitamin.

It is so interesting to me that when I take the guilt off of the table (that's an interesting play on words) and remove the word diet or depravation that suddenly emotional eating isn't in play.

Today feels like a great day and I love being in this imperfect body and imperfect mind.

Loving the concept of bringing my self back to the body that God intends me to occupy :)